I know the truth that it takes time to retrain our brains, but there are times that I get tired of fighting the battle for my mind. In fact, I was so busy fighting the battle in my head yesterday that I almost hit a car coming out of a parking space! I said to God, while putting my heart back into my chest, “Will this battle ever be over with? I’m so tired of it!” Then I heard the Spirit gently say, “I know you are. Hang in there. It’s worth it.”
He was simply reinforcing what I heard from Jesus, my Boss, in my weekly staff meeting (1 Peter 5:4). He talked about how I will face much opposition in accomplishing the mission He has for me. He told me the main tool my enemy will use will be to attack my mind. (Another biblical truth tool is that we act consistently with the way we think.) I can either fight through it and experience victory and peace or give up and feel unsatisfied and discontented. The choice was mine.
I just happened to be in Jeremiah 20:7-12 in my BIG reading where Jeremiah was basically saying the same thing, “Lord, I’m tired of the battle. I’m tired of getting attacked, even by my friends! Yet, I can’t do anything but follow You. You are a mighty warrior.” Good stuff, right? But there was more as I was also in Psalm 57. Verses 2-3 read, “I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills His purpose for me. He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those who hotly pursue me; God sends His love and His faithfulness.”
My job is to listen to and follow Jesus. His job is to fulfill His purpose for my life as I follow Him. The beauty is that I can cry out to my Mighty Warrior while I follow. Yes, there is a battle. It will not be easy, but the fight is well worth being close to Jesus.
Oh yeah, pray that I don’t hit any cars along the way!
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Amen! I’m desperately tired as well, but it’s soooo good when I cry out to HIM and He hears and sends us His encouragements. G_d whispers along our Journey ….. especially when I’m staying surrendered and before Him listening and placing my hope there instead of despair, whining and complaining. Thanks for sharing your thoughts as always!
Yesterday I even admitted to Him that I was angry and sometimes got tired of staying forcused on Him (of course He already knew that) but just as soon as I was very real with Him, it seemed that a veil of not being able to hear Him or feel close to Him left and I was right back with Him and in His presence. It’s amazing to me that He takes our humaness and still supplies us with such incredible Grace and Love!